My Story
Introduction
I've lived a life built on chaos, hard knocks, and comebacks. Born in 1981, raised mostly in Oregon, I've seen both sides of the line: the discipline of sports, the grind of union work, the crash of the economy, the injuries that should've ended me, and the resilience to start over — again and again.
This is the long version. No filters, no polish. Just the journey.
Early Life & Sports
I was born in California, but Oregon became home early. Childhood wasn't easy. My real dad bailed, my stepdad adopted me, and though we butted heads, he raised me. Growing up, I bounced through 12 schools, got bullied, got into fights, and learned to stand up for myself.
Sports were the outlet: soccer, baseball, basketball — none of it stuck. But football and wrestling? Those clicked. I started football in 6th grade, wrestled from 7th to 9th, and spent summers at wrestling camps. By 8th grade, I was medaling in tournaments. Wrestling gave me grit; football gave me fire.
Somewhere in there, my dad got us a Bally's Total Fitness membership. That's where the spark for lifting really started.
The Work Years
My teenage years were all jobs and hustles. Dairy Queen, Pepsi, building trailers at Forest River. Eventually, I went union — Job Corps fast-tracked me, and I became a carpenter. For nearly a decade, I worked union jobs, proud of it, until 2008 hit.
The crash wiped everything out: no commercial work, no money, lost the house. I went back to school, got a Bachelor's in Network Management. Tried running my own construction company, King Stud Construction, but the business world was savage, and that fell apart too.
I've worked everything from food service to IT contracts, but construction and tech are the trades that shaped me the most.
Fitness Highs & Lows
Health and fitness have been the one constant. Twice in my life I've dropped 60 pounds in 90 days — once grinding through union hours with a bodybuilding.com plan, and again in 2019 with Chris Gethin's 12-week program.
I've trained through broken bones: a shattered ankle (still got steel plates in there), a broken shoulder from a hit-and-run motorcycle accident. American healthcare failed me, but I didn't quit. Even with a cast on, I was in the gym.
2019 was the turning point: no more half-assing. I built discipline, stuck with it, and turned lifting into a lifestyle. Now I've got my own garage gym setup, and I stream workouts live to share the grind.
Family & Oregon Roots
I'm Oregon through and through. It's the state that raised me, shaped me, and keeps pulling me back no matter where I go. I'm also a proud dad — three kids, and everything I do is about setting the example: strength, health, and resilience.
The Chaos Era
The last few years have been about building:
- Streaming under PhsycoCommando — Sharing the grind live
- Writing the Fitness Bible — Documenting everything I've learned
- Developing apps — Phsyco Fitness Tracker, The Iron Skillet, RepReel
- Building AI rigs — OpenWebUI setups, Discord bots, and digital asset packs
Chaos Collective is the umbrella — fitness, tech, nutrition, community. Out of disorder comes creation.
Closing
I've broken bones, lost jobs, failed businesses, and climbed out of holes most people would've stayed buried in. But that's the point: resilience isn't a slogan, it's survival.
This is my story — and it's still being written.